I just had a realization.

What am I doing with my life?

All I live for is studying and slogging through school as I study hard for tests.

Do the tests, get them back, get grades, what's next?

Shouldn't teenage years be the best of your life?

What happened to YOLO? (You only live once)

My life revolves around CCA and School.

Not even God. CCA has taken over my Saturdays.

How many times can I say I have been to cell/service this year?

Feel so flustered now.

Every weekend is spent either A) Studying for tests or B) CCA

Isn't life supposed to be fun and free?

I need to live.

Like truly live.

Go out and live!

/rage/

/aahhh/

Bio test and lit test tmorrow but im like ah meh.

3 lists of three things

3 things I should be doing:

1) Bio notes

2) Reading up SS

3) Studying in general

3 things I'm doing:

1) Watching HIMYM

2) Eating

3) Relaxing

3 consequences of slacking

1) Doing mediocre-ly for everything

2) Feeling guilty and making a list of 3 things

3) Eating more out of guilt.

When people are not online I get nervous I mean what if they are studying and I'm not?! Ha.ha.ha.

Off to study Bio. For realzzz nowww (or later)

good golly

So. Today I had a near death experience and it really scared me.
Firstly, how scary asthma can be and secondly, how fragile life can be :/

Le sigh.

I think I really have a thing for puppies. And kittens. And all things fluffy and cute.

I can't even. I really need to hug all of them!!! *cuteness instincts on*

Camp was okay, I think the main thing I've learnt is.. it's not about getting things done fast enough and on time.. it's about caring for your batchmates and not being selfish. Things can go well but if the process of getting there was filled with sloppy and selfish behaviour then the whole thing is a flop! Yupp. That's LTC in 4 lines. Hurhurhur.

Mum's buying KFC for dinner. I could eat a cow at this point.

Speaking of cows, when they changed the hike venue to Sentosa, Sam the qtpi exclaimed "WE CAN'T GO TO SENTOSA! WE DON'T EVEN HAVE OUR PASSPORT. FOOOLS!" and then I looked at her and said "Dear, you know we dont need a passport right?" "Wait.. where's sentosa again?" she's about the cutest qt pi you'll ever meet :')

Rescue Mission went great, our route was great and everyone's morale was up. But as said, the process of getting there and everything was kind of filled with selfish behaviour and thus everything negative overpowered the positives.. :(

NEVER MIND. People develop from the negatives! :D

Really thankful for people like Charm who really cared when I was at my vulnerable state and she tried real hard to comfort me. Love you charm though you'll never read this. :')))) Really glad to have Claire too for accompanying me before camp and buying water. I love you spoooooon(:

Hospitalised and out alive all in 1 day. Exciting day :)

i wish i was an elephant

Then i could stomp over all the mean people in my life.
Ha.ha.ha just jokkkinnng (no really)

So, term 1 is over. march holidays are here!
Isn't it strange, it's been 10 weeks with 3B and I feel no difference from when I first stepped in.

Okay maybe new friendships have been formed but nothing more than the superficial level.

However, I feel that with 2012, I can count on more people? Learnt who is my friend and who isn't.

You woud think once you leave a girls' school, drama is over. LIES.

Theres a drama club here too!! Hahaha (that was a jokeee)

I think I've gotten quite close to Alvina and that is lovely to me :]

We even have monthly dates at Holland V now! Ka chinggg

I've also gotten closer to Claire, which is also lovely. Double lovely.

Record number of times having meals in one week: 4! Insaneeeee.

But somehow, i don't feel that icky feeling of being with someone for too long

Everytime I hang out with her it's always fun and full of nonsense yet we're able to have serious convos as well. I love you dear! :]

Currently explaining Girl world to ginyong HAHAHA

In girl world... I feel like I'm in mean girls hurhur

Anywaaayyy.. studies wise.

Lots of Bs, only gives me motivation for Term 2?

At least I have more than 1 A! Ha.ha.ha.

Top 3 huggers of ma life:

1) Claire (oh yeah)

2) My dad

3) My Mum

I think my parent's love for hugs have stemmed MY love for hugs hurhur

My future spouse has to love hugs, if not we can't be together. I won't be able to survive! haha

Very all over the place post but in short: term 1 has been a whirlwind and I hope term 2 is like a ferris wheel. Going slow but steady but still going. :>

bloop bloop

Today was a great day. Woke up feeling all cheery and bright, thinking, 'LAST WEEK OF TESTS!'

And then it rained. Ha. Dramatic irony? I think so.

Had my emath test today... it was okay. I think I've never experienced that feeling when you find yourself lost for time and you're scrambling to write everything as fast as possible; except for today. (and the previous Amath test). Did I also mention I have a beautiful new Emath teacher?

My friend Kelda found her modelling for this blogshop. SHE COULD VERY WELL BE ONE! Okay the photo isnt the best, her cheekbones are really high and she puts blusher on the right places and dayum, Alvina and I are totally pedo-ing on her. Hahaha.

Wonder what it's like to be as beautiful as her heh.

Anyway off to read The Hunger Games! Then do some Amath and then Chinese. :>

Last week of torture before the holidays and then more torture during LTC Camp! huzzah

its to wise men, i want your formula of time

Hello!

A whirlwind of things have been happening recently.

For the first time this year, I can say time is passing really fast.

Within a couple of months, we'll be taking over and be Unit Leaders!
And Ryan will step down and Rebecca and I will be taking over Journ

ANDDD Claire(Hi dear!) will be stepping down and a new Exco will rise up.

Isn't it scary? I find it really scary

Especially with expectations. :/

It's so easy to step up and assume all the power but with it comes great responsibility and damn I honestly do not want to take over.

Especially if it means I end up like the very seniors I loathe.

Gablargh I wish I was a still a sec 1, not leading them D:

Anyway I passed my 3rd Gold on saturday! Huzzah!

Going to Campsite waaaayyyy tooooooo often. D:

Anyway this is a chirpy post hohoho (see what i did there claire)

Sis is shooo-ing my off the com. Personal post next time :)

little miss perfect little missed too

hello!

I had a lovely dinner with Claire at a not so lovely little Macdonalds at SP

Realised today, what is the venom we speak is the venom thats spreads and is the very venom that stings us? (I hope you get the overuse of the word Venom :O)

Anyway, my back hurts like qwlqnvonvorwbrobrw and my hand blisters are like asjvnb pain. :(

I guess its all worth it, 12 days left to FAC! Exciting(No not really)

Looking back at posts on FDC, and how I was so hesitant about it then we won, I hope that hesitant(ness) brings forward to FAC! Hahaha I think the more confident you are the harder you fall :/

I feel really mushed up about results and subjects and school.

So much responsibility and so much things to do and so little time and arghh can't wait for FAC to be over then I can study :< (What a nerdd)

But I'm real determined to do well this year. It's not a year to slacken off :/

Chapel tomorrow! Hope I don't fall asleep. Urgh sleepy X 1000 now

Time to do some Amath then Chem then sleep. Oh wait and Chinese now. *groan* CHINESE.

The bane of ma existence yo. :(