Hiiii.
You know that bad feeling you get when you realise you might have just ruined someone whom you admire a lot's respect in you? Yeah I'm experiencing that right now. I feel like I've just lost his respect in me by acting totally out of context and acting like an immature brat who didn't get what she wanted. Sighhhh.
I kind of miss Claire. She doesnt reply texts prolly cause she's busy with camp but i do miss talking to her. Claire I miss you!
Hello dear reader. I'm currently very late for school. Like, "oh crap I was supposed to leave the house at this time but i just woke up!" kind of thing. Anyway, I'm on my way to school now, for this p5 camp that I'm facilitating. I'm not very prepared to be all hyper and loud for this camp, I'm too exhausted to be hyped up. Maybe sleeping at 1 was a bad idea.. I'm pretty sure one or both of my eyes is/are bloodshot.
So yesterday, I gave another person my blog link (which I think is lovely). I feel that with every new person knowing about this, I feel more and more, bare/ naked? I don't really know how people can talk freely about their problems on the net and be fine with leaving it out there for anyone to see. I feel like once they've uncovered your secrets, they look at you differently and probably even judge you! (That's what I do anyway, I'm quite guilty of that) Doesn't that give you that naked and bare feeling? No 'clothing' as a safe and warm haven to cling on to for safety? Or maybe its just me.
As usual, Im very concerned about safety. Literally and figuratively. I feel that because I've befriended certain people, more people like me now? That's a plus i guess. I've made much more new friends now as compared to the start of the year (yay?) I would say that I feel more comfortable in council now, cause Jamie, Rachael Anisa Magdalene and I are pretty coooool. But Jamie and rachael are really pretty, popular and cool! I feel very intimidated around them cause they have all these equally as popular and cool AND pretty friends! I've never thought of myself as popular, neither have I ever considered I would be popular. I guess awkward people like me are confined to their own social circle and don't get millions of likes on their profile pics or hundreds of followers on twitter. But I don't really mind :]
The bus is moving exceptionally fast today! I'm not going to be late! HUZZAH. :D
Actually I do mind! Washing off the crayons will be dreadful.
Anyway! It's the holidays now. Hardly a holiday, considering I have to come to school a lot of the time. Streaming results are also out(double). Are you pleased, July Gracia? I'm quite pleased, November Gracia is pleased. If there is one thing I have learnt through this EOY period leading up to streaming, its that grades don't define you at all. This highly contradicts my precious couple of posts but i really have learnt this! Thus, I am pleased with whatever results I have. You must be thinking, "gosh what happened to Gracia?!". Yes, a lot of things have happened and its made me realise much more things than before.
Anyway, its 1:06am so pardon any spelling mistakes. I'll continue this in the morning. My eyelids are closing and i hate touch screen phone keyboards. Gr.
