Sunday, February 10, 2013

ahh

When I was in the car back to S'pore I totally has this blog post in my head but rn I'm just like.. meh.

In summary what I was gonna say was:

7 and 8 year olds can speak fluent Cantonese while I can't.
Blame Billingualism. Also they learn English Chinese AND Malay. Overachievers much.

Malaysia has ridiculously cheap food.
Not fair.

Read John Green's Looking for Alaska and Paper Towns.
One was disappointing and one was not.

Though Looking for Alaska was the better of the two, I hope I'll never have to be in the situation.

Watched a movie called Restless about a girl dying in 3 months and the guy loves her and AHH but i know she's another MPDG. The beautiful girl who dies and the boy who learns to let go of his anger management.

I wish MPDG would stop making me feel like I want to be one of them and be perfect and pretty and have nice hair and nice dresses and clothes.

THEY DONT EXIST GRACIA.

..... nobody asked you Patrice.  

Friday, January 11, 2013

It is a pasta competition

Mum made Ikea meatballs and I was SO looking forward to eating it with the sauce but when I reached home and opened all the saucepans, all I saw was a crap load of tomato sauce and I was confused.
Then my mum told me she actually made pasta with the tomato base and she made the meatballs so we could put it with the pasta.
Dinner=ruined.
It's not that I hate tomato base pasta (hate it), it is just that I very much prefer cream base pasta, which I'm sure my mum didn't know.
Thinking about it and painfully eating the pasta mouthful by mouthful as my mum put more sauce on my plate made me think that this is exactly how my first week of academic school has been.

So you see, it is like a pasta competition.
All the chefs, ranging from super good, to can't even boil water, are going to take part in it.
The end goal is for all chefs to get a good rating, and they have mentors pushing them towards this goal.
The chefs are told, study hard study hard this is THE year of the competition and don't you want to do well?
They even send the chefs for viewing of the judging for the previous batch of chefs.
Watching the chefs which tried so hard, fail under the judging made chef gracia so scared of failure that the only motivation for her to work towards that pasta competition, was the fear of failure.
Her mentors continued pushing her and her culinary class towards making that perfect pasta, yet all she felt was that the culinary gods were just dumping more and more dreaded tomato sauce on her plate and that she was the only one gorging it down while everyone happily took it in.
The fear of failure overwhelmed chef gracia as she felt so lost and hopeless in every class, that no matter how many times she read how pasta is made, she could only memorise "put pasta in boiling water for 2 mins", without actually understanding why.
Memorising was easy for chef gracia, yet all she felt was just a sense of hopelessness as she continued and forced herself to study, planning her days to study all the best culinary cookbooks.
Yet, whenever she touched or opened one of these cookbooks, all she felt was this irrational fear and a wave of emotions coming over her, wanting to consume her and make her crawl into a corner.
Chef gracia could already picture herself being one of the chefs who failed miserably in the judging, with all her hardwork turning into dry pasta and stale sauce.
Chef gracia continued to push herself to persevere, yet this was definitely not the type of meatballs she had expected when she excitedly took on the challenge of this competition.
Chef gracia just wanted to quit and cry and sleep and not even try, for trying for the sake of the fear of failure was as good as not trying at all.
What happened to all the motivation that chef gracia felt when making pizza the previous year?
The process of learning how to make the perfect pizza was so enjoyable for her, as she eagerly read through all the books and made notes.
yet now, all she felt was hopelessness and dread whenever she opened any of her books to learn the 'ways' to make the best pasta.

It's all a pasta competition.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

of sickness and results

Been sick this week, and I realise how much I appreciate sleep and rest
First week of being Sec 4 is almost over and in all melodramatic-ness, i'm so tired 
After seeing the release of the O level results today, I feel so scared and stressed
And starting to wonder what I've been doing with my holidays and my life these 2 months during the break.
And what I really want to score for O levels, is it 8? Where do I want to go? How am I going to achieve my goal? When are you gonna go hardcore grauiv?
QUESTIONS. 

Kind of really clueless for Bio, which worries me because I took for granted the A for EOY and was a sotong during extended curriculum so now I'm all DDDD:
Chinese is also stressing me out because my teacher enjoys giving us all the answers while we just copy and when I try I always feel like I have so many ideas but I can't put them into words.
The chinese department also printed all the cheng yus from Sec 1-4 that are in our TB which is nice, but also incredibly stressful :(
Over the weekend, I guess I have to catch up on revision for Bio, Chinese, Chem and my Combined Humans.
Jam packed weekend ahead :/

In other news, my sister's co-worker keeps stealing money from her.
People nowadays.
Tsk.


Sunday, December 2, 2012

trying my best

......
To listen to all the T-swizzle songs on RED.
It's not easy, like Speak Now, it takes time to appreciate everything.
But because I am a hungry and food deprived person, the songs just sound like whining to me.
Grrrr.

Anyhoo, I'm writing this post as a reminder to myself that I need to get my butt down to doing homework and planning devotion for cell retreat and packing for Melbourne.

GET YO BUTT DOWN TO DOING THINGS GRACIA.


Sunday, November 18, 2012

So

Recently, my life has been reduced to either
A) Spending ALL my time in school
Like 9-5 or on lucky days, 8-6
Which really doesn't make me upset, it makes me busy so I don't end up doing B
Speaking of B...
B) Sitting at home watching all my favourite shows and going on the internet
I've seriously started a Sunday lazy schedule.
10.45-2.55.
3 episodes of Castle, followed by 2 episodes of Body of Proof
I'm not that much of a Body of Proof fan, mostly because I HATE this guy.
Like, HATE HIM.
Worst character ever.

Look at that ugly face.
Okay I'm being quite biased but hey, the dude is annoying, immature and just downright hate-able.
And he isn't even a villain! He's one of the good guys.
Makes me so mad.
But then again they make up by making a really nice couple of Peter (Detective) and Dani (Medical Examiner)
BUT THEN.... dun dun dun
They killed off Dani's character.
I was SO mad.
With that, I was done following Body of Proof

How can you kill her?!
RAGE.
Castle still makes me happy though, they're showing Season 2 which is my fav season so yay.
yay for staying in bed for 4 hours watching TV.
On to the internet... everyday I find new things that blow my mind.
Previous blog post was about my new found interest in Victoria Secret Models (Perfectionnnn)
Now I've found a new interest!
Food bloggers.
Like, how amazing is it to just bake food, take photos and blog about it?
Uhhuh.
And all this baking is making me want to bake too!
Except I have to remind myself that I cannot bake, and I will never be able to.
/insert sad face/

Anyhoo, another exciting part of my life is that Council Camp is tomorrow!
I don't know if I'm excited or not
I haven't packed anything and I'm prolly one of the most unenthusiastic campers around
I just want to stick my tongue out and be like..
LET ME SLEEP IN.
I haven't touched any of my holiday homework either, except my emath worksheet.
I got on pretty alright till I got to coordinate geometry
and I'm the (self proclaimed) queen of that.
There has never been a Amath practice paper/EOY paper that I've done that I haven't gotten full marks for coordinate geo.
BUT THEN.
Emath, everything wrong!
I got so frustrated cause I checked and I was right and the answer sheet was wrong
Making me feel that the answer sheet wasnt credible at all
SO WHAT IF ALL MY OTHER ANSWERS WERE WRONG?!
That sent me into a flurry
And i decided not to touch Emath anymore
And seeing that it is the least complicated homework,
I foresee I won't be touching homework for awhile.

Anyhoo that's all for now folks,
need to pack for council camp and find something to wear for Farewell.
Whoop dee do

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Life's too short to even care at all wo-ah-o

Okay, I don't know how to spell 'woah-ah-o'
But the title comes from a song called Cough Syrup by Young the Giant (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xF5uvXV93hw)
Darren Criss covered it and it's a good cover as well! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdfuhAoA_9M)
And no, it isn't about a someone addicted to Cough Syrup!
Which reminds me, in Health Education in primary school, the textbook had a cartoon or a drawing of this boy who hid under the table and under his umbrella (Yeah, totally not gonna get caught bro) drinking his cough syrup and he was licking the spoon HAHA.
Ok now that I think about it maybe there was something fishy going on.
As fishy as a fish on a leash

(Found on tumblr)

Anyhoo! I'm in a particularly good mood nowadays, holidays are here and though there are many stressful things such as council camp and journ camp coming up, I'm pretty happy.

This type of mood

Anyhoo I hope you'll continue reading cause well, whenever I blog hop it's not always interesting to read someone's life when they are happy. Ya know what I mean? They have to write really emotional stuff and make you feel all the feels before they get you reading. An example would be Blackology, which is a Twitter account made by this dude who lives in Singapore who has tons of problems and all the girls tell him that he is telling them exactly how they feel and everything. It's quite touching really (not). He's like their saviour. Anyway yes he has a blog as well that writes all these feelings. So this isn't one of those blog posts, but I'll attempt to update on my life thus far!

Birthday
It was quite the lovely day actually
I mean I wasn't expecting so much but there was
A) Cake, which no one has ever bought for me b4.

All the feels.

B) A lovely gift from Claire which made me tear (More on that later)


C) Just the company of friends who constantly amaze me that I even have them and they love me the same

Friends who don't mind if I walk around my house in PJs and wet hair


Can you call us a clique? My 'clique' of friends who are absolutely lovely :3


Qt junior Kristine and Evan in the background. Yes, I'm thankful for Evan too. He wished me and was pretty nice about it! Also, asian eyes alert!


ew. Just kidding, love these two <3 p="p">
D) Leonard sir and Chanel Ma'am



The day was so perfect with them, from Thai Express to Ice kating to Ben and Jerry's at Dempsey.
Constantly feel loved around them.
Second parents? Sort of.

E) Sogurt

No birthday can be complete without Sogurt. Yes? yes? YES.


Love sogurt.
and you also lah Claire.
Her (your) gift totally blew my mind and I was pretty much bawling at night to myself when I watched the youtube videos. Love Claire so much :')

F) Church!
My lovely cell members got me a cake and a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY balloon! When I was sec 1 whenever the Sec 4s did that for their friends I always thought, "maybe one day someone will get that for me" AND SOMEONE DID. #cheapthrills
They made me tie it to my bag and everything. #livinthedream

Overall, it was a lovely birthday. Constantly blessed by people who love me :)

Results 
Exams came and go, with serious anxiety in between and self doubt.
It all worked out and all the hard work really did pay off I guess!
#smugmoment Everyone was complaining about their results on Twitter but I was really happy!
Of course I didn't post anything like "ALL YOU SUCKERS DESERVED IT BOOYAAHH" or anything.
I would be beaten up.
But yes, results were good and I was thankful.
Totally a moment to use this GIF:
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Just have to work towards O levels now I guess.
Can't be complacent. :S

Red Cross Bazaar 
So what's the perfect way to spend your time after exams?
Volunteering! :D
It was a very epic event, with food EVERYWHERE and nice foreign people everywhere.
Do you think it's weird that the thing that excited us most was not the food, BUT THE SHIRT?
We have been waiting so long to finally be Red Cross volunteers.
Imagine our spazzing.

We were very excited.

Other highlights include pissing the French Ambassador off and then taking a photo of her flag just to make her mad


Getting temporary tattoos:


Americans are ridiculously nice. We definitely need more of them in Singapore.


Overall a good good day. By far the best CIP so far. And i've been to A LOT.

Other unrelated nonsense 
Which I'm sure you're excited about!
I've decided on my new planner for 2013! After an hour of deliberating online between 3 choices, I've decided! (Yes this is what I do in my free time) 



Jie owns the 2011/2012 ones and they are adorable and after much thinking so I've decided! #girlyproblems

I've also decided my new pencil case!



!! Isn't it lovely? I've seen it in real life and it CAN fit my pencils and stuff and it can also work as a clutch to keep my phone etc.
Such excitement.

Also today I spent my time looking up models. Do you know how beautiful they are.
A) Karlie Kloss


Basically she's the real life tumblr girl we never were.
And she's really cute too! Watched 1/2/3/4/5 interviews of her.
B) Behati Prinsloo


Pretty much. She's african as well!
Mean girls reference: If you're african, why are you white?
I don't know either, but she's beautiful!
C) Coco Rocha
Last one I promise, before your self esteem gets completely crushed.


She's not afraid to look ugly! I like.

Self esteem=ruined. Just kiddin,




Oh did I blog about Harry Potter?!?!! I think not!

HP Exhibition
It was good. Almost as good as 

Swagrid.
I mean it was a tadddd bit awkward at the start with Junyi Ma'am and GY sir seeing they were like totally glued together in the front with Alvina and I at the back but it was all good after lunch.
Lunch consisted of us discussing the use of polar bears and pandas (Junyi ma'am would eliminate polar bears from existence if she could cause she says they're useless but she adores pandas!) and clubbing and their first experiences.
Quite an eventful lunch.
Then we went for the exhibition, which was also lovely.

Cue the awkward smiles!
We also took some funny shots in front of the posters.

Classic.

Our favourite movie. Yeah Junyi ma'am, go and look perfect while we are fan girling over the poster.

Our Chocolate frogs!

Terrible beans make hilarious videos of us cringing while eating them.
Rotten egg was by far the worse. *shudder*

Yes. That's pretty much a sum up of my life thus far.
Hope you enjoyed the long post Claire! (I accept that you are my only reader, it's ok)
If you reached this far, BRAVO!


See y'all(you) soon!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

growing tired

Well, exams are drawing near (8 days!)
Been studying more and more, which equals to less time spent at home, which equals to insensitive and unnecessary comments made by my mum.
It's getting very frustrating when all she can ask me if I am trying to 'prove' that I am 'hardworking' by coming home late, or that I am trying to 'hint' at something whenever I talk to her.
In her defence, she is probably flippant with her words, but it's really getting to me
To the point I don't even want to talk to her anymore.
Rlly mum, if you wonder why I don't talk to you, and you think I have an attitude problem,
think a little?!?!

In other unrelated news, SO EXCITED FOR SATURDAYYYYYYYYYY.
Leonard Sir and Chanel Ma'am, haven't seen them in sooo long and it's going to be a wonderful birthday :>